There aren’t many nights I cry myself to sleep, but last night I did. It’s because you meant so much to me. We spent hours building the it and now it’s withered away. There aren’t many nights I cry myself to sleep but last night I did. Being stupid I let the one thing that meant the world to me slip away. So when I lay my head down and have time to think. I realize there aren’t many nights I cry myself to sleep, but last night I did.

I wanna move on, I don’t wanna still be in love with you. I don’t wanna have the memories of us, but they’re all I hold onto. I once called you my drug and I’m still addicted. I still scratch and itch looking for a fix. Just a small dose of you is all I need but how could that be. It CAN’T and I know this. I’ve deleted you from my Facebook and we don’t follow on Twitter. But I still be on the lookout for you. I try and move further away, because distance already separates us and as I try to move one foot forward. The other just won’t cooperate and get with the program. I’m stuck here wanting and waiting for you. It’s a pointless wait. Its after-hours and I know the bus isn’t coming, but I stare at my watch and looking up as if it will show. I love you and I want you, but there no way I can have you…

In honor of its official enacted repeal today, I want to dedicate a post to my homosexual men and women readers. At the strike of midnight on September 20, 2011, the policy known as “Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell” was now and forever denounced and repealed. The policy first brought into law back in 1993, under President Clinton, did not allow for homosexuals to openly serve in the U.S. military. It said that the military would not seek to find out if a person was homosexual or not.

But it truly wouldn’t be that simple, the military wouldn’t openly ask, but would investigated service members to discover their sexual orientation. Back in 2001, there were over 1,000 U.S. men and women discharged from the services due to their sexual orientation. One main reason used was that, openly serving homosexual men and women would disrupt unit cohesion. There were both military and civilian personnel who formulated different reasons to why the repeal of this policy would hurt the U.S. military.

I want to come out and say that it is a great thing that this policy has finally been repealed. I think that it is truly segregation and racism rearing its ugly head once again. Some of the same reasons used to why openly serving homosexuals would hurt the military were some of the same reasons used for why whites and blacks shouldn’t serve together. For those who would argue that the two are different and are not the same I would like to say to you look deeper than what’s on the surface. Go pass skin color or race and sexual orientation, and look at what it is discrimination and hatred. Both of which are ugly.

Whether you are gay, straight, or stuck in between black, white, or purple, if you truly believe in this country in which you live, have decided that you are willing to possibly give your life in defense of it, then you should be allowed to serve. Repealing this policy was about a homosexual thing, but looking at the bigger picture of what life and what this nation is suppose to be all about, it’s a human equality thing. So SHOUT OUTS TO ALL THE HOMOSEXUAL MEN AND WOMEN SERVING IN THE U.S. ARMED FORCES, I SALUTE YOU.